Thursday, March 19, 2009

After Training

I just gave my first, full training session...and I think it was a success! A big THANK YOU to Meg, Anya, Avril, and Liv for helping me out. It would not have happened without your help, Ladies.

It was scary and exciting both at the same time. I had been waiting for a chance to prove that I am not all air for the longest time, and here it was. The feeling was indescribable. As the days progressed, I found myself looking with wonder at these people who were looking back at me with 100% trust and positive expectation. The participants were lively, humorous, participative, and energetic. They asked good questions, listened attentively, were always on time, and expressed regret at the end of the session that the whole thing had come to a close. Feedback forms have been nothing but positive. I am truly overwhelmed. I mentioned to Livi today how this could all be not too good for my narcissism rehabilitation, but honestly, I am looking at it with awe and appreciation and I am holding the whole thing with care and taking none of it for granted. So, I think the vanity in me is safely, and will be safely, contained.

For the first time in a long time, I feel satisfied and fulfilled. I feel that I ended three tiring but full and productive days, with work done that mattered to people other than myself. When Meg said, "You are the culture they will be borne into", I trembled with fear. Now, I am thinking, that might not be so bad after all.

9 comments:

Anya said...

I'm so proud of you. You need this and you deserve this. It is not wrong to feel good about yourself or what you are able to do, Vicki. I've never thought of you as a narcissist. :-)

People who can't take your strength or talent or general awesomeness are welcome to disappear.

Anya said...

By the way, I love what you said "...with work that mattered to people other than myself..."

Aaaack I'm so happy for you; my heart is bursting.

TryingtoWake said...

It's wonderful when you feel like you've finally gotten the reigns of your life back in your hands. Congratulations, Vicki! I'm so proud of you! You go, girl! See you tomorrow. ;-)

vicki said...

Anya, thank you for the encouragement. It really means a lot! And thanks for the care and the love. See you soon you sexy thang!

Affiekins, it is wonderful to get some control back and to be ahppy and proud about something. Thanks! See you later!

Ree said...

Congrats Vicki! I've been so busy I haven't been able to catch up on your posts til now and it's amazing to see how your posts went from almost despairing about your job situation to celebratory in just a matter of weeks. So happy for you!

dreamwalker said...

GO Vicki!!!

suZen said...

I'm new to your blog and don't know what the training session but ya know what? It doesn't really matter. You did something good for you, its also good for other people, and you cannot argue with something all good! Enjoy your accomplishment! It sounds like something you were obviously meant to do - keep doing it!

dreamwalker said...

Go Vicki! I remember posting this comment but it never showed:(

Anyway, I have a tag for you in my blog.

vicki said...

Thanks Ree! Crazy things happen all the time I guess. Been super busy too so I haven't been able to blog. Hope all is well with you and yours.

Numi, Sorry. Super late publishing of comments. No Internet!! Waaah!

Suzen, that's the most important thing, I guess. And I hope you are right, about me sounding like I am meant to do this. =)