Do you ever wish that sometimes that other person would go through the same lengths to understand and be patient as you do?
Do you ever wish that sometimes that other person would stop to consider that perhaps you are having a hard time with every single thing you have to do?
Do you ever wish that sometimes you could just stop and just let that other person do everything you're doing just so that that person would have a first-hand idea of what it's like to be you for even just a day?
I am not saying that I want to be waited on all the time, or that I want things to go my way all the time, or even that other people should come to the same conclusions as I do or see things the same way I do all the time. In fact, I've often said that different perspectives and opinions can be healthier than being exactly the same. Neither am I saying that I am abused in any way. Sometimes I just want to be cared for, respected, loved with the same care, love, and respect that I give.
Friday, July 18, 2008
Fun Again
I got this from Insights from the Grocery Cart, particularly this post.
1.WHAT DATE IS IT?
:: July 18, 2008
2. WHAT TIME DID U WAKE UP?
:: 6:30am
3. DID U GO SOMEWHERE YESTERDAY?
:: Just Red Ribbon.
4. WHAT DID U DO THERE?
:: Got a Red Velvet Cake for my sister-in-law.
5. HOW OLD ARE U?
:: 29 years old
6. ARE U MATURE OR IMMATURE?
:: mostly mature
7. WHAT DO U CALL UR MOM & DAD?
:: mommy and daddy
8. ARE U AN ONLY CHILD?
:: Nope, middle child
9. WHERE DO U GO SHOPPING?
:: SM, Landmart, Robinsons
10. DO U LIKE SCHOOL?
:: yes
11. DO U LIKE BOOKS?
:: yes!!!
12. DO U WANT TO GET MARRIED?
:: Already married.
13. WITH WHOM?
:: my hubby
14. ARE U SPOILED?
:: i used to be.
15. WHATS THE MOST FLATTERING COMPLIMENT U EVER GOT?
:: secret
16. ONLY GIRL/BOY IN THE FAMILY?
:: only girl
17. IF U WERE TO MARRY A CELEBRITY, WHO WOULD IT BE?
:: hmmmm, for the appearance of all around stability- Tom Hanks.
18. WOULD U LIKE TO MEET Josh Hartnett?
:: why not
19. where do u think ur bestfriend is?
:: at her office, where she spends 90% of her time
20. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME U TALKED TO UR BESTFRIEND?
:: last night actually
21. U THINK SHE/HE NEEDS U NOW?
:: not really
23. WHAT DO U WANT FOR UR BIRTHDAY?
:: money
25. IF U WERE TO BUY A CAR , WHICH CAR WOULD IT BE?
:: a Suzuki APV or a Crosswind- or a Hybrid car
26. A DUET WITH HEART EVANGELISTA?
:: not interested
27. DO U WEAR MAKE-UP?
:: just for going out, but not really
28. WHAT LIP BALM DO U USE?
:: Petroleum Jelly
29. WOULD U GET A TATOO?
:: already have
30. BELLY PIERCE?
:: also already have
31. HOW MANY KIDS DO U WANT?
:: four if i had more money but two is great as it is
32. DO U HAVE ANY HOMEWORK?
:: nope
33. ANY SONG THAT YOU’RE LISTENING?
:: not really
34. DO U BELIEVE IN SPELLS?
:: yes
35. WHERE DO U WANT TO GO NOW?
:: UK
I'm tagging Livi, Avril, Numi, Ren.
1.WHAT DATE IS IT?
:: July 18, 2008
2. WHAT TIME DID U WAKE UP?
:: 6:30am
3. DID U GO SOMEWHERE YESTERDAY?
:: Just Red Ribbon.
4. WHAT DID U DO THERE?
:: Got a Red Velvet Cake for my sister-in-law.
5. HOW OLD ARE U?
:: 29 years old
6. ARE U MATURE OR IMMATURE?
:: mostly mature
7. WHAT DO U CALL UR MOM & DAD?
:: mommy and daddy
8. ARE U AN ONLY CHILD?
:: Nope, middle child
9. WHERE DO U GO SHOPPING?
:: SM, Landmart, Robinsons
10. DO U LIKE SCHOOL?
:: yes
11. DO U LIKE BOOKS?
:: yes!!!
12. DO U WANT TO GET MARRIED?
:: Already married.
13. WITH WHOM?
:: my hubby
14. ARE U SPOILED?
:: i used to be.
15. WHATS THE MOST FLATTERING COMPLIMENT U EVER GOT?
:: secret
16. ONLY GIRL/BOY IN THE FAMILY?
:: only girl
17. IF U WERE TO MARRY A CELEBRITY, WHO WOULD IT BE?
:: hmmmm, for the appearance of all around stability- Tom Hanks.
18. WOULD U LIKE TO MEET Josh Hartnett?
:: why not
19. where do u think ur bestfriend is?
:: at her office, where she spends 90% of her time
20. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME U TALKED TO UR BESTFRIEND?
:: last night actually
21. U THINK SHE/HE NEEDS U NOW?
:: not really
23. WHAT DO U WANT FOR UR BIRTHDAY?
:: money
25. IF U WERE TO BUY A CAR , WHICH CAR WOULD IT BE?
:: a Suzuki APV or a Crosswind- or a Hybrid car
26. A DUET WITH HEART EVANGELISTA?
:: not interested
27. DO U WEAR MAKE-UP?
:: just for going out, but not really
28. WHAT LIP BALM DO U USE?
:: Petroleum Jelly
29. WOULD U GET A TATOO?
:: already have
30. BELLY PIERCE?
:: also already have
31. HOW MANY KIDS DO U WANT?
:: four if i had more money but two is great as it is
32. DO U HAVE ANY HOMEWORK?
:: nope
33. ANY SONG THAT YOU’RE LISTENING?
:: not really
34. DO U BELIEVE IN SPELLS?
:: yes
35. WHERE DO U WANT TO GO NOW?
:: UK
I'm tagging Livi, Avril, Numi, Ren.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Karma?
HAHAHAHAHAHA!! I love my officemates. They are funny, funny, FUNNY people. They really can lighten your mood and make your problems seem far away (at least for a little while). The best part is, this is mostly done unintentionally. That just goes to show what kind of natural humorists we have in the office.
The most recent funny episode involves the yin to my yang- Numi. See, she promised, swore, did everything short of waving a magical wand or using Saidar to etch her promise in Cuendillar (for non-followers of Robert Jordsn's 'Wheel of Time', Saidar= female source of magical power, Cuendillar= unbreakable material that was used to seal the Dark One away from the world) that SHE WOULD NEVER BUY A PINK LAPTOP.
Guess what? Over the weekend, she did!! And she took such great pains to hide it. I cannot write down or hope to describe here how funny it was when I found out. I wonder if Livi knows. I can't wait to spread the hilarious news!!
(I got the picture of Mr. Burns from this site).
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Appearances
Those who have visited my blog more than once know that I have changed my template four times already. I never am content with what I see. I don't know if it's the fickle nature of the Gemini, or just me never really being satisfied. And this got me thinking about some things.
Appearances can be deceiving. This cliche has been used again and again and again but really, it makes sense. A person can look and act completely satisfied and yet be suffering from some perceived loss or lack within. A person may display acts of kindness for all to see but then be cruel when just with you. A person can act like your best friend and then stab you a million times in the back. Similarly, a person can appear to be the biggest bitch in the world when in fact she's your strongest supporter. In a world driven by appearances, how can one tell the genuine from the fake? Do you really leave it to your instincts to tell the difference? Is it true that these whispers inside, these butterflies in you stomach, speak the truth for you to know? What if your instincts have failed you before? What do you do then?
Appearances can be deceiving. This cliche has been used again and again and again but really, it makes sense. A person can look and act completely satisfied and yet be suffering from some perceived loss or lack within. A person may display acts of kindness for all to see but then be cruel when just with you. A person can act like your best friend and then stab you a million times in the back. Similarly, a person can appear to be the biggest bitch in the world when in fact she's your strongest supporter. In a world driven by appearances, how can one tell the genuine from the fake? Do you really leave it to your instincts to tell the difference? Is it true that these whispers inside, these butterflies in you stomach, speak the truth for you to know? What if your instincts have failed you before? What do you do then?
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Medicines and Natural Remedies
I was shocked, and I mean SHOCKED, when I called the drugstore last night to ask for costs for medication my kids need. Because my son has been coughing for almost a week now, he's had no appetite. And so the Pedia told me to give him appetite stimulants. When I called to ask for the costs of 2 different kinds of appetite stimulants, I was aghast to hear that one small bottle (90ml) of one brand costs p160 and one (120ml) bottle of the other brand costs 400!!!!!! My goodness. That's not even the biggest amounts I am going to drop in this post. My daughter has very sensitive skin so I need to always have skin asthma ointment handy. She ran out of this said ointment over the weekend. When I asked about her medicine, the pharmacist told me that her tube, which originally cost p850, now costs p1060. When I asked for the alternative ointment the Pedia prescribed, this cost a whopping p2050!!! Unbelievable. The cost of EVERYTHING is rising now and this is alarming when you think about the medicines you need. How I wish there were natural supplements or medication for what my kids need as they tend to be less expensive. Not only are they sometimes less expensive, you also feel safe in the knowledge that what your are giving is preservative or chemical free. Take for example one of the more popular natural remedies around today Himalayan goji juice . I saw this product featured on Oprah some time ago and I remember wondering about it. Could such a product really have all these healing effects? You could imagine my surprise when my husband came home with a bottle over the weekend! He told me he and his mom decided to try it out to see if the little cystic bumps they had on their arms would dissolve. According the the person who offered it, the juice could help with that. Well, so far I can report that he's been feeling a lot cleaner on the inside and that the juice has helped with his digestion. And you don't even have to take too much in one go to feel the difference. This, of course, had me thinking. So I researched a bit and found some useful tips on this site. I am hoping for more feedback on this and to find other remedies I can maybe consider for my kids. Anyone have any info I can research?
Monday, July 14, 2008
Choices
In one of the Harry Potter Books, Albus Dumbledore says "It is our choices, Harry, that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities." I'm struck yet again by the weight of these words.
Choices. Everyday we make choices. From the simplest of choices like choosing between chicken or beef or between watching TV or reading a book, to the more complex choices like whether to invest in Mutual Funds or Franchising, we are surrounded constantly by the need to make a decision and to choose. These past few days was a recent test in the choices I had to make.
My son has been sick lately. He's been down with a cough and, for a couple of days, a fever. Naturally, I want to be there to nurse him back to health, to be present if he feels insecure, and to just assure him that (at least for this part of his life) Mommy will help make things better. But I couldn't be there all of the time to do all of those things because I had obligations I needed to fulfill to make sure he and his sister would be ok in the long run. Yesterday morning I took him to his room to sleep and he ended up crying for 10 minutes and calling for his yaya. Now, it took every little bit of me not to cry as well. I couldn't blame him. She was there when I was not, at least half the time. So I picked him up, put him to bed, and hugged him until he fell asleep. Thankfully, he was chipper and excited to see me and to tell me about all his little discoveries when he woke up 4 hours later. My daughter is another story. She has just been growing up so fast. It really bothers me that I have to get updates about he progress from her yaya. Yes, I do see a lot of these things myself when I am taking care of her. But it isn't the same as it would be if I were there all the time. And I felt the same way when my son was less than a year old, except to a lesser degree as there was less taking my attention back then.
So, Choices. Am I choosing well?
I know I am doing what I have to do now and it really is for the best. I am not blaming anyone for this nor am I under any misconception that the world owes me any favors. I often dream of making it big and finally having the means to spend 90% of my time at home but I know that I have to work to make this happen. The kid in me wants to go back to the days when you could squeeze your eyes shut and wish for something and it would actually be possible to see that wish come true. But I know from experiences in my relatively young life that, in the end, I make it happen, no one else. I have to stifle down feelings of resentment because I know that is just the brat in me stomping her foot and wanting her way. I have to take deep breaths to not be so angry that it has to be this hard. I know that if I were lucky enough to have financial support then great, but, if not, then I would just be one in the legions of moms on an endless quest towards financial stability and that I would not be, in any way, unique. And I know I have written about this before but why does it always seem like I am doing something wrong? Is the sacrifice of time with my kids, watching them grow, being there to teach them what I think they should know, really worth it? I think I know the answer to that question. In fact, most of the time, it really isn't a choice. How then do other working moms do it? How do they have steady marriages, full careers, and are good moms who raise good kids all at the same time? I don't get it. I wish someone would teach me how to do this right. Because I honestly often feel like I am doing it all wrong, and that I am drowning in things I have to do, missing the things I want to do, not really liking who I am and yet feeling powerless to change things given the circumstances.
Choices.
Choices. Everyday we make choices. From the simplest of choices like choosing between chicken or beef or between watching TV or reading a book, to the more complex choices like whether to invest in Mutual Funds or Franchising, we are surrounded constantly by the need to make a decision and to choose. These past few days was a recent test in the choices I had to make.
My son has been sick lately. He's been down with a cough and, for a couple of days, a fever. Naturally, I want to be there to nurse him back to health, to be present if he feels insecure, and to just assure him that (at least for this part of his life) Mommy will help make things better. But I couldn't be there all of the time to do all of those things because I had obligations I needed to fulfill to make sure he and his sister would be ok in the long run. Yesterday morning I took him to his room to sleep and he ended up crying for 10 minutes and calling for his yaya. Now, it took every little bit of me not to cry as well. I couldn't blame him. She was there when I was not, at least half the time. So I picked him up, put him to bed, and hugged him until he fell asleep. Thankfully, he was chipper and excited to see me and to tell me about all his little discoveries when he woke up 4 hours later. My daughter is another story. She has just been growing up so fast. It really bothers me that I have to get updates about he progress from her yaya. Yes, I do see a lot of these things myself when I am taking care of her. But it isn't the same as it would be if I were there all the time. And I felt the same way when my son was less than a year old, except to a lesser degree as there was less taking my attention back then.
So, Choices. Am I choosing well?
I know I am doing what I have to do now and it really is for the best. I am not blaming anyone for this nor am I under any misconception that the world owes me any favors. I often dream of making it big and finally having the means to spend 90% of my time at home but I know that I have to work to make this happen. The kid in me wants to go back to the days when you could squeeze your eyes shut and wish for something and it would actually be possible to see that wish come true. But I know from experiences in my relatively young life that, in the end, I make it happen, no one else. I have to stifle down feelings of resentment because I know that is just the brat in me stomping her foot and wanting her way. I have to take deep breaths to not be so angry that it has to be this hard. I know that if I were lucky enough to have financial support then great, but, if not, then I would just be one in the legions of moms on an endless quest towards financial stability and that I would not be, in any way, unique. And I know I have written about this before but why does it always seem like I am doing something wrong? Is the sacrifice of time with my kids, watching them grow, being there to teach them what I think they should know, really worth it? I think I know the answer to that question. In fact, most of the time, it really isn't a choice. How then do other working moms do it? How do they have steady marriages, full careers, and are good moms who raise good kids all at the same time? I don't get it. I wish someone would teach me how to do this right. Because I honestly often feel like I am doing it all wrong, and that I am drowning in things I have to do, missing the things I want to do, not really liking who I am and yet feeling powerless to change things given the circumstances.
Choices.
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