Entourage is GREAT!

This show has been on since 2004 and I've seen it on 2 different cable channels but I have to admit I didn't stop to watch it until last night. Somehow the idea of watching a show about guys hanging out and being guys didn't appeal to me. I mean, come on. I have an older and younger brother so, suffice it to say, I have been surrounded by guys (their friends included) all my life. I thought, no mystery here.

I was pleasantly surprised.

The show is actually very funny. I know, I hear snorting. My brand of humor is not the popular type. It actually most of the time isn't the intelligible kind either. But this show is great! It's about this up and coming actor Vince and his life in Hollywood with his childhood friends and brother, who also happens to be an actor (albeit an older, struggling, more washed out one). It is funny, funny, funny! Yes, they are guys being guys. But they aren't a*$h*!@s. They aren't condescending or patronizing, nor do they play any of the other stereotypical guy roles. The show really focuses more on the friendships and how this plays a very important part in the way events unfold. I like to think of it as a guy Sex and the City because of the friendship part (not the sex or the city obviously). Another good thing is a guy will actually watch this show. Well, at least my hubby did. And he found it funny. (Now his sense of humor is more recognizable so this has to count for something). I recommend this show for those lazy nights with the hubby or the boyfriend, over a bowl of buttery popcorn, or even steaming mugs of coffee/tea/chocolate. And watch it from the first season so it makes more sense.

Baby Food Update

As planned, I have begun my homemade baby food process. I said I would do it after next payday, next payday has come and gone, and now....I am on my way.

Over the weekend I made my first batch of homemade baby food. Since my daughter has been eating chicken, mixed veggies, and mixed fruits already, I tried not to stray from the familiar for my first try. So I made her chicken with squash and apples, carrots, squash. I combined them to make chicken-squash and apple-carrot-squash batches. They were very easy to make! I just needed to boil a whole lot of things and then puree away. It was actually a lot of fun. I liked the taste of the chicken-squash mixture more than the apple-carrot-squash mix but this is probably because I don't like apples or carrots. It did have a sweetish taste though which I though was perfect to sweeten the chicken mix. I bought these rubber ice trays, 2 big ones, which I used to freeze her food. Perfect!

The best part is, she likes the food! I am so pleased. I get to feed her stuff I am sure of because, well, I make them. Plus, savings!

Next project would be beef and fish. I am thinking of incorporating yogurt and cheese but I am not sure how yet. She should be able to take them already since she's 9.5 months. Any suggestions?

Social Anxiety

Your Social Anxiety Level: 32%

You have low social anxiety. Of course very unfamiliar or strange situations make you uncomfortable. But you can pull through and handle almost any social occasion with grace.

Are You Socially Anxious?

I found this result interesting (in the way the word is meant to be understood) and quite funny. I should feel better then.

Letting Go

I've kind of been proud that I have the ability to recognize (ok, mostly for non-personal things) when to let go and move on, when to accept change, and how to deal with this and adapt. I find though, that letting go and adapting has been quite difficult for me to do these past 2 weeks. I understand that this has to be done, that things are not the way they were anymore, that I need to accept and move on. But this precious step has been eluding me. Numi told me that once I rewire the way I see what I am tasked with now, things will become so much easier. But I can't seem to find the wires to rewire. Does that make sense? I just know I've been feeling jumbled up, and unstable, and like I am constantly in transition. And, if you know me, you would know that these are the least desirable adjectives in my repertoire.

I just hope that I can adjust already and get on with it. Because although things should be much simpler now, they are just a lot more stressful.

Carrie's Lessons are Mine

I was listening to this song on my brand new mp4 player on the way to work. Again, I had one of those "on-the-way-to-work" thoughts. I realized that parts of this song show how I really feel about my life so far and other parts are thoughts I wish I could really think, feel, and do. I won't elaborate as to what those parts are. Haha.

"Lessons Learned"

There's some things that I regret,
Some words I wish had gone unsaid,
Some starts,
That had some bitter endings,
Been some bad times I've been through,
Damage I cannot undo,
Some things,
I wish I could do all all over again,
But it don't really matter,
Life gets that much harder,
It makes you that much stronger,
Oh, some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were,
Lessons learned.

[Chorus:]
And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
Everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,
Every change, life has thrown me,
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar,
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned.

There's mistakes that I have made,
Some chances I just threw away,
Some roads,
I never should've taken,
Been some signs I didn't see,
Hearts that I hurt needlessly,
Some wounds,
That I wish I could have one more chance to mend,
But it don't make no difference,
The past can't be rewritten,
You get the life you're given,
Oh, some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were,
Lessons learned.

[Chorus:]
And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
Everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,
Every change, life has thrown me,
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar,
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned.

And all the things that break you,
Are all the things that make you strong,
You can't change the past,
Cause it's gone,
And you just gotta move on,
Because it's all,
Lessons learned.

[Chorus:]
And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
Everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,
Every change, life has thrown me,
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar,
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned,
Oh, some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned,
Lessons learned.


I looooooove Bo Bice. I really wanted him to win AI. But today, Carrie rocks!

For Tara

I don't know her personally but I think what happened to her was terrible. Please go to the benefit concert held for her at 70's Bistro. Details in the poster to the right:

If you can't make it, please spread the word. Any kind of help would be most welcome.

If you don't know what happened to her, click on this link to find out.

(Thanks Numi for the link).

Serenity

Full Original Serenity Prayer
by Reinhold Niebuhr (1892-1971)

God, give us grace to accept with serenity
the things that cannot be changed,
Courage to change the things
which should be changed,
and the Wisdom to distinguish
the one from the other.

Living one day at a time,
Enjoying one moment at a time,
Accepting hardship as a pathway to peace,
Taking, as Jesus did,
This sinful world as it is,
Not as I would have it,
Trusting that You will make all things right,
If I surrender to Your will,
So that I may be reasonably happy in this life,
And supremely happy with You forever in the next.

Amen.

I've been praying this prayer a lot over the past week, well, at least the first part. Which is lucky for me since I don't like the use of "reasonably" in the second part of prayer. It's been working 9/10 times in helping me fall asleep. My mind just works and works even when I am not doing anything and this is even more so if I am particularly stressed about something (and I've had a number of somethings the past few days). I found this quote online today:

The teacher is within,
So you have to learn to be still.
You have to live your life
So that you are listening within
No matter what you are doing.
-Bartholomew

I am hoping this will be additional help. So far no effect though. *Sigh